Susah betul!

I don't know about you ladies out there but I am having a hell of a time preparing for my wedding. Everything is so serba tak kena and I hate thinking about the whole process - hantarans, baju kahwin, make up, shoes, wedding favours, songs to be played during reception, EVERY SINGLE GODDAMN THING!

I wish I can complain endlessly but this has got to stop because right now I am having a stiff neck and anytime I can have a nervous breakdown. No, I'm not joking. The only thing that I enjoy doing is ... nothing currently.

BUT...

As much as I hate doing the preparations, I still make sure everything is done on time. I secretly enjoy meeting up the designers and wedding decorator, searching for the perfect ring and jewellery to go with the bajus, trying out shoes and more shoes, the flowers for the hand bouquet, semualah although I have to admit, assisting someone else's wedding is so much fun than preparing your own. So I guess I have to live with this love-hate feeling until my wedding is over.

So if anyone of you need my help, I'll be glad to do so - maybe it could make me feel better for not putting 110% effort for my own wedding. I have many important contacts, tons of bridal magazines and wedding stuff that I can give/lend them to you. Maybe if you're lucky, I'll let you try my wedding dress(es). Nak?

ADDENDUM

Actually this entry is pointless - am not making any sense! I wanted to share with you girls on my journey towards marital bliss (like how other bloggers will write) but nah, I simply can't. Why don't we wait until the end of the week because I'm supposed to go for my first fitting with my designer. Hopefully the bajus will be as fabulous as the designer himself!